Uncontrollable Anger

La la laaaaaa la la laaaaaa... FUCK THAT! *throwin shit* where my fuckin gat!? BITCH GET THE FUCK BACK!!! AAHHHHH!!!!! I don't know what the fuck wrong with me!!! I must be bipolar or some shit! Must be! Bitch u musty! *siiiggghhhh* even if I'm walking down the street its like some muh fucka tryna test me! Lookin at me craaazy and shit! BITCH DON'T MAKE ME GO FOR MY HIP NIGGA DON'T GET HIT!!!! Shiiiiiit... I must need some ritalin or something to calm my nerves! I'm tired of being angry... this shit for the birds... I need group therapy! But I don't know if I can take it! Fuck I got ADHD! My moms always like "honey u scaring me"... I'm sorry moms but I don't know why I'm always so angry! My girl she left me for this other cat... this nigga is wack though! Ima beat the fuck out him to get her back!!! *siiiiggghhh* there we go again! *poppin my prescriptions* I think this world would be better off without monty! Lord knows I've done some shit in my life that'll come back and haunt me... smh... *looking at the prescription bottle* I got 10 more pills left... 10 pills mixed with alcohol is sure death... it hurts me to know that I feel this way! Feeling like i will NEVER see some better days!!!! I wish... I wish that the pain just fades away... into the nights sky... I wonder if I prayed for forgiveness before I died would i get my wings so I could fly... away... away... awayyyyyy... fuck it! I WILL NEVER SEE NO BETTER DAYS! *picking up a pen and putting it to the paper* dear mom, I love u with all my heart... I really dont know where to start but... ever since u brought me into this world I hated it... my dad hated me... I never got along with my classmates so they never played with me! I got tired of crying myself to sleep! I wish u could understand please! That's y I can't take living anymore... I'm sorry mama but im tired of living poor! *a single tear falls on the sheet of paper, pours the pills in my mouth and chases it with a pint of vodka*